Wednesday, October 15, 2008
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This is just a test. Can u guys read me?!?!?!
8:55 PM
Saturday, January 19, 2008
I have no one to call grandfather now....
The world has suffered a great loss...........
11:54 PM
Wednesday, January 09, 2008
all i gotta say is
" GUESS WHO IS FREAKIN BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
7:50 PM
Friday, December 14, 2007
Well, I guess I am gonna be blogging more frequently now. I am utterly depressed. This is going to be a long, mundane and depressing entry. So if u want, bear with me, if not get lost.
School’s over. 3 months went past me just like that. I wasn’t even aware of how fast time was flying. It feels good to have finished a semester and know that you gave it your best shot. I haven’t felt like this since I was in primary school. Next sem’s modules include, psychological statistics (I hope its not as boring as it sounds!), world civilizations 2 (this is gonna be fun!), academic writing (hw interesting…bleah), principles of communication (I got no idea man!), and I forgot what the other one was. If I remember, I will type it out later.
I haven’t mentioned about my uni friends yet. The people who have made such an impact on me cannot be described in so little words. They hold an extremely high place in my heart. Of all the posers, the friends who changed even though I din expect them to change, the branded rich sassy girls, these friends of mine are the ones that have held the true meaning of friendship during my first semester. I would have definitely have to thank them for giving me a memorable experience , and in the case of Sowmya, memorable muffins and quessadias (I got the spelling wrong). That’s all I got to say. U have to know them to feel what I am feeling. I hope we have many more semesters like this.
Today is December 14. Remember this date. Remember this date because this is the date when so many of my loved ones have left me. Dilshad has gone for a 24-day holiday in Sri Lanka. The poor boy deserves it, but I gave him a hard time. It was difficult for me. It was the first time in the 2 years that we know each other, that he is going away for freaking 24 days. It was definitely selfish of me, but it was not as if I had a choice. He still went anyway. Now there is this big unbearable feeling of emptiness inside me that I feel.
Dun get me wrong and dun u dare judge me. I am not a mushy person. Ask anyone you know, I am definitely not a mushy person. I kinda lost my sentimentality after my last relationship with a certain someone who deserves to be buried alive. When I say I feel empty, it is because D is not only my boyfriend, he is also most definitely the bestest girlfriend of mine. There are absolutely no secrets between us. I am very proud of tad fact. Furthermore, I can tell him anything, absolutely anything, and he would give me advice just like how a normal girl does. Hell, I even tell him about my monthly cramps. There is not a pinch of egoism in D and I admire that. He is jus raw, and not exactly vulnerable, but pure? So now that he is gone, I feel as though I am weak. Like as though a part of me is gone? How cliché eh? But its nt exactly love that I feel. Its more than that, its like a state where u cannot function without the person by yr side? What do u call that? Dependence? Nah, I dun think so. I am still independent.
Im getting depressed typing this. Bye.
8:20 PM
Sunday, November 11, 2007
I hate my father.
not little.
HATE as in I-wish-he-was-dead HATE
if he was dead, I would eventually get over it.
I cannot get over the stuff he does.
I wish my father was dead.
12:28 PM
Thursday, October 18, 2007
I guess I better update before I become non-existent eh. Hmm, there is nothing much to say actually.
For those who actually have time to spend and read my blog, in case you din realise, I have been really really busy with school.
School. I really should change my opinions about it. I was so wrong about it. Remember, in the beginning, I was kinda dreading school and was apprehensive about making new friends. The question lingering in my mind was whether everlasting friendships could still be formed! Boy oh boy, I found so many unique individuals in my course itself.
I really enjoy the american education system. They really encourage students to actively participate during class discussions and we readily have to be on our toes because there are tests almost every other week. We study consistently. It was difficult to get used to initially but as we progressed, I think I would rather this that the rigid system in Singapore.
2 interesting things happened. Firstly, my mother allows me to go clubbing officially. I mean, last time, even though she knew I was going to a club, I had to tell her that I would be staying out late for a bbq or some other crappy reason. Now; however, she is a completely changed person. She agreed immediately to me going to a club which was really surprising for me. haha. Going to uni can do wonders. Oh I forgot what the other thing was.
Im sorry, this is totally irrelevant but I need to vent it out somemore. Bloody hell, nelly is snoring on my sofa right now. Its 11pm and I am up miserably trying to type stuff for psych and nelly is snoring on the sofa. She is such a female dog .Eventually, I would have to carry her to my bed later on ,as she would be too lazy to climb the stairs up.
Oh ya, as I was saying, the american education system also comes along with its disadvantages as well. Obviously, I have no social life now. My nights are spent in school with the latest being 11pm. I am out of touch with current affairs. I do not know that the television exists. My wardrobe is a pigsty n I am a fashion disaster. I did not even know the pair of jeans called skinnies existed till my friend told me yesterday. Sacrifices have to be made to get good grades I guess. Like what priyanka would say, sometimes I jus need to "LET GO", hence the clubbing escapade.
Poor D, he has to suffer together with me. I havent met him for like a month, and if when we meet its for small talk. There are no more long walks, window shopping and gossiping. I'm sorry. I hope and know that you will understand. Thank you :)
Oh ya I remembered what the other thing was. Apparently, mumsie dearest wants me to takw my masters before I start working. I am not sure whether I have reached that level of expertise yet (I know I am only taking bachelors but its still worrying!). I wanted to work for some years and than embark on the education path again, but since mumsie wants me to take this path, mayb i will? We shall see eh. I cannot wait to spend at least a sem in the UB campus in New YOrk. Btw, its right beside the niagara falls and the highest temperature there is 21degrees celsius. I have heard so much bout it frm sowmya that us girls are really looking forward to spending a semester there. It will definitely be fun.
Alright, I have got computer science to deal with. Beepers and aliens, here I come!!!
10:35 PM
Monday, September 24, 2007
wow. its really been long since i last blogged.
all i have to say is that
my eye candy is 30 years old (or more for that fact). :(
D, if ure reading this, please GET JEALOUS!!!
haha, im sitting in school n trying to cramp up ugc into my head for the past hour. I TELL U (no offence to my chinese friends) BUT CHINESE CIVILISATION SUCKS BALLS!
sooo many unique individual names to remember.
Im gonna burst.
If u know me, please pray that i will still be alive at the end of this week :)
till i see ya all again, take care and good-bye!
7:27 PM
